About Us - Journey4Us

C and T
I’ve always hated the question to tell about myself, it makes me feel like I am in a job interview.
But maybe it’s just difficult to put it in words about who I really am, because this journey is still teaching me the face of my true self. My name is Chris, and I have been brought up to be free, in choices, in mind. I was able to do whatever I want, whenever I wanted, with whom I ever wanted. Being as free spirited as I was, it was only natural for me to travel the world. Although I hate traveling, I learnt to love living in unfamiliar places, getting to know different cultures, different people, and most of all getting to know myself along the way.
My journey has brought me from the Netherlands, to Israel, to America, to China, to Germany, and currently in Cambodia. My upbringing has made it easy for me to adapt into new environments, pluck feathers from many geese but never follow one completely. Living in places where you don’t speak the language, places where your norms and customs are challenged, and places where you’re left with your own thoughts…on your own, widens your horizons.

On my own, I found joy again, happiness that I thought at my age was impossible. I had given up on love for I believed it to be only true in fairy tales and pipe dreams. Stuck in a maze, blinded by haze.

The pot of gold at the end of the rainbow was getting old. My world was dull and grey until she crossed my way. Colors appeared, again a feeling that was lost and once feared. She gave me a feeling so strong that I started listening to corny 90’s songs.

Although she is very different from I,

we collided and made rainbows and butterflies.

♥C♥

Rainbows and butterflies are few of the things that remind me of how beautiful life is. The transformation of butterflies and the appearance of a rainbow are so magical and mysterious. They take my breath away.

If I would have to describe how my childhood was, I would say, it’s like an amazing race. Being the first determined you as the winner. Recalling about it now, I was always in a race and competition for anything you can name, academics, basketball, cooking, speech, drama, dance, football, bouquet making,,, and many more. And what’s great about those, if I wasn’t the number one, I normally landed among the top list. I grew up full of praises from friends and family, and it made me think that life is all about that. Being liked and being praised.

I always get everyone’s love and attention, if only I become the best in such things, and so I did persevere to be the best, in everything. Achieving lots of excellence gave me confidence that I can get everything that I want. I believed in myself!

Entering adulthood, that belief I had about myself started changing when I encountered failed relationships along my journey. Everytime I failed, it was not easy for me to get up, I wasn’t used to it. I just didn’t like the feeling of “recovering”. Fearful about being cocooned again, I decided to stop searching and waiting for that love. I made a conclusion that I can get everything I want,,, anything, except love.

A person like me who oozes confidence and perseverance is less likely to say “ enough”, but I did.

I chose to stop the waiting and the searching for that one great love. During that time when I decided to stop chasing gave me different perspectives about life. I learnt to love myself more. I learnt to accept that life is full of ups and downs and getting yourself back up is a vital trait that I should have. That moment of my life opened my eyes to a realization that there is love and beauty around me. I have my children and my family. I didn’t need anybody.

Along the way, someone made me feel he knew me right from the start. A feeling so strong that magnetized us naturally. I got a feeling he was noticing my broken smiles, but I felt too safe and secure, and with him I did confide. The day I met my love, was the day I knew that my life was starting all over again.